I'm bored, So it's time to do a bit of deep thinking. What's the topic going to be? Let's start with...life.

A bit of a broad topic, perhaps, but it seems the necessary category. So tell me, what does it mean to be alive? One might go for the literal meaning, and say that it's when you have a functioning heart, breathing lungs and a working mind, but what else? People have been said to be "dead to the world", yet they still breathe, do they not? they still feel pain and pleasure as normal? Or do they? Sure, when we get hit, our body says its painful, and when we are rubbed, caressed by a gentle hand, our body says its good. But one will notice, through possible speculation and experimentation, that not everyone will react the same to the same touch, the same hit. It depends on how we feel about it, on how our minds, who we are, says we should feel. one might be hit, and take pleasure from that pain, saying it feels good, despite the soreness of it. One might be felt and massaged, yet shy away from the pleasant feeling, on the grounds of what their minds tell them. So if us being normal, being human, is weighted on how we react and feel to things, then what are the requirements? what are the limits? Is there a set amount of "emotion" that one has to give off to be alive? And if people need emotion for this, then what kind? There's good and bad emotion, along with everything in between, but then there's another bump we hit. What we see, not in ourselves, but in others, is also dependent on how we ourselves feel. One person might like someone they know, because of some similarities or pleasurable differences between their minds and emotions, yet hate another person because they DON'T like they way their mind is. Everyone is said to be different, but there is still that guideline, that similar "human-ness" that everyone possesses. So what if someone lacks this? this thing that makes us alive? What does that mean to everyone else who's "alive", should they be shunned by it? How can one even tell, when they are talking to someone with no emotion? Well, one might find it simple to answer, as in most people's minds, an emotionless person will just sit around not doing anything, not reacting to anything or anyone. Then again, there are others who would argue that being "emotionless" means that you feel no remorse (aka, killing tiny animals with no feeling). I have a different theory. I say that whether or not one is alive is dependent on how they truly feel about what they do. Even if someone sits around, not reacting to anyone else around them, are they not still aware of what they are, of who they are? Perhaps so, perhaps not. But think of this, what happens if you try to get an emotionless person to do something deemed to have emotion in it? Chances are, they'll shun it off, or ignore you. Has anyone thought that perhaps they enjoy their emotionlessness, in their own way? Maybe the life of not caring is pleasant, or at least better than what it would be if they DID show emotions? So my theory stems from whether or not people feel, deep inside, what they do. lets think of actions here. If one laughs, Is it not enough for that common spasm of the diaphragm to occur? Is the familiar rushing of wind from your lungs to your mouth not good enough? Is it that, to really laugh, no matter how loudly or quietly, you have to feel it, you have to actually be feeling SOMETHING from what you're doing? Notice I never said joy, as that isn't required. If you are laughing simply to be nice, or laughing from something awkward, or to make light of something painful, even if its not the emotion people connect to laughter, you still feel it. You feel the painful awkward laughter, feel the uncomfortableness of doing it. And then the other end, tears. Those simple droplets of water falling down your face. They could be tears of joy, or of the greatest regret and sorrow, but you still FEEL it. So tell me, what is a person, who does not feel that which they do? What does it mean when someone laughs and feels nothing, cries, yet is confused as to why they do so, as they feel none of the sorrow, or joy, or ANYTHING that comes with it? Are they human? Are they just a common husk of flesh and organs?

Some people are said to change the way they feel about things. One time they might like this, another day, that. One day they agree with something, and another they don't. Part of how we feel about things comes from what we know, and of how others act, etc. etc. Tell me, what is the normal time, for someone to change an opinion to another? For some, it could be seconds, but those usually come from swift acts, such as someone changing their trust in another after the person does something horrible. Is it normal, though, for one to change their opinions so often, to alter what they think so much, that they HAVE no opinion? What does it mean though, to have no opinion or feeling towards things? The word that comes to mind is "neutral". It could be good this way, but the other is fine too, both paths seen as the same thing. Some people forget though, what neutrality can also be. think of simple math, is zero only zero? no, zero can also be -3 + 3. two opposing numbers, evening out to...nothing. People can be indecisive at times, since the pull from two different choices is equal, leaving them in blank middlespace. What if that blankness, that middle nothing, was your entire life? Lets say, perhaps, that someone may act nicely, or act cruelly, but their thoughts in their heads make them neutral? To put it humorously, what does it feel like, to feel absolutely nothing? What's it like, to enjoy everything, and hate everything? do agree and disagree with everything, even yourself? To what ends does one get, understanding all, yet understanding none? Is it painful, all of the indecision? yes, it is. Is it joyous, not having to commit to any opinion? yes, it is. but at the same time for both questions, no, it isn't. There's no decision to be made.

Lets move on from that, though, and onto a new topic, about life and its difficulties. Where is someone in their life, about how they feel on what their situation is? One person, one in a high class society and home, might look at the children in Africa or otherwise, and say "How can they ever be happy? How can they ever smile, when they have so little?". To this, I am reminded of the phrase "Is it better to have loved and lost, or to have never loved at all?". Most would say it is better to have loved, so that you will have never missed out on the wonderful feelings you got while the time lasted. I disagree. I believe that a more fitting response to the previous saying would be another saying in itself, "What they don't know can't hurt them". People talk about how precious life is, but think about this. Imagine if, by chance, there was another person in the world, just for you. be it friend or otherwise, this person fits to you in every way imaginable. You can imagine how wonderful it would be to meet this person, right? Now think about this, let's say that that other person was in an accident. Let's say that, in their youth, an illness claimed their life. Tell me how sad you are. Tell me, honestly, how much grief you are feeling this second over the person lost forever, you're perfect person. You cannot honestly say that you truly feel all that bad. And why is that? Simple, because you didn't know them. You have no idea what talking to them was like, as you never have. You don't know anything bout them, as you've never met, and now they're dead. Parent's will grieve over the loss of a child, but do they grieve over the literal millions of their 'children' that never made it to the egg? Do they give any thought to those who never got to multiply and grow, becoming human? no, Because they didn't know them, not in the slightest.People can look at blissful unawareness and scoff at it, saying that that person should be seeing what they missed and feeling something over it, but they won't, because they can't. Back to the thoughts of people in, lets say, "lesser" countries, You would wonder why they can be happy? Why they can smile? It's simply, the only life that they know if is the one they live in. Living in that country, with their small (or large) family in a ramshackle home is fine, since they have with them everything they've ever needed since birth to be happy, which is usually just their family. Now what would happen if someone in a high class house somewhere else were to be placed into that country? Guarantee, they might enjoy one, possibly two things, but otherwise they will be miserable. Over and over, their minds will play on all of the things they're missing, all the things they no longer have. I think, to really gauge how bad a life has been, you have to take what they had, and compare it to what they have. Someone has a shitty life? With parent's who don't care and abuse and such? That's bad, as we could expect. But then say that person's brother dies, or something. Yes, that's bad as well, but it's just another crappy thing being added to their life. All their existence their life has been at a -12, and that death would only further bring it to a -14. Now take another person. Take a person who is completely happy, with everything they'd ever want in their life, money, good family, friends, everything. Now take that person and strip it away. Take away those friends, reduce the money, and separate the family. Take a look at where the family is, is it nice where they are? Well, sure it is. The remaining family still cares, they still have enough money, but it's not the same. It's more the drastic amount of change that just happened that matters most here, as that child just went from a +20 life, to a +3. The life he has is still good, no doubt. It's still better than the first child's, for sure, but which child is the saddest? Is it the one who just had another bit of crap added to their life, or the one who had all of his good life taken away from him? To put it another way, the bathroom smells the worst to the one who was just sniffing flowers. To take off the rose-coloured glasses is painful, and I say, leave them off from the start. Otherwise, how can you expect to feel anything, after such a huge change? It's a simple process to be happy, when you no longer care either way. It's easy to pull a trigger, when you aren't effected by the results.

>>>For the tl:dr people, this is where to start<<<

Well, that's my small...ish, rant-type-thing. Now back to whatever I was doing beforehand.

And to to lighten the mood, look over there! It's a kitty!